Friday, January 30, 2009
posted by Tinker at 07:08

This is finally feeling significant. Thirty weeks is three quarters of the way through a full pregnancy -- coming out of that last corner and heading for the home stretch. A baby born at this gestation has a pretty good chance at a perfectly normal life. An infertile/miscarrier/general worrier can start to relax and believe that there really is a baby at the end of it all (not that nothing can go wrong now, but the odds...).

With 10 weeks to go, it feels so much like the inverse of the first 10 weeks. Those early days are tenuous, risks of loss are high, anxiety is higher. Confidence is likely near the bottom of the toilet bowl that some are seeing regularly if they're lucky enough to get that awful reassurance.

It's balance of a sort. I like balance, but I'm not crazy about being on the front end of this scale. I like it much better here where I'm content with my little nesting tasks and the kicks and jabs I get as reminders that this is the happy expectant time, and likely the last time I'll be here.

I'm not sad that I may never be pregnant again. I know that I was when I faced not getting pregnant a second time, and I definitely missed feeling a living person moving inside my belly. I suppose this means that I really am done. I'm just coasting and contentedly soaking in what I can of these last weeks before my brain gets fogged by sleep-deprivation again.

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Monday, January 26, 2009
posted by Tinker at 19:20

My understanding is that the true "I'm going to have a baby and must clean out all the cupboards at 3am"-type of nesting frenzy happens within a week or so of the birth, but my husband last week pointed it out to me as I was spackling some of the nicks in the wall where I installed a new baby gate (our eldest just irreparably broke the last one) and where the kids play.

"I think I have to keep you pregnant all the time to get this much done." He quipped.

I wasn't impressed. I've been trying to work through a number of the items on my household to-do list and recently that included scouring the city for a replacement cold air return cover (where the old gate used to be, I had notched the existing cover for the gate to swing properly; the new gate is in a slightly different place and I need to avoid the kids cutting themselves on the sharp edge) because actual measurements are different from brand to brand in spite of having the same nominal size, replacing a broken light switch in the kitchen which of course is wired completely differently in spite of being the same brand and style as the existing one, and scraping six-year-old contact cement off of the tile in our ensuite (the cabinet installers made the mess when they installed the toekick all those years ago and I just kept hoping it would wear off on its own).

Part of today's action included the start of the bedroom shuffle for the kids.

Until today the babies (well, toddlers now I guess) shared the nursery with cribs across the room from one another. Little R is in the bigger room down the hall. The plan was to move the boys in together in the bigger room and have the girls share the nursery. The furniture for the boys' room was supposed to come around Christmas, but was delayed and is now likely to arrive in early February. I ordered the mattresses from another store and they did arrive as requested in late December, so today I brought one up to the boys' room and dropped it on the floor against a wall, closing the open long side with a bed rail. It took a half hour of somewhat confused crying before S finally settled down to sleep tonight, but he's currently comfortably snoozing on his new mattress on the floor. If all continues well this week I'll have his crib for sale by the weekend as I need the room in the nursery to put Little R's bed in there for L so that baby can have the original crib.

On the agenda for tomorrow? Sewing duvet covers for the boys (not that S needs one just yet as his Grobag is fine) and putting screws into our dining room and living room hot air vents as I'm very tired of fishing all the kids toys out of there.

So he may be right, though it's clearly something of an extended nesting phase.

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Friday, January 23, 2009
posted by Tinker at 22:14

...that I have to come here to check my own ticker to find out how far along I am?

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Monday, January 12, 2009
posted by Tinker at 23:35

Feel pregnant, I mean; perhaps it goes back to the pure run-of-the-mill nature of the past few months. Most of the time I'm completely oblivious to this two-pound human growing inside my belly. Yes, I'm pooched out (measuring three weeks ahead), yes I feel baby kicking regularly, but I don't yet feel properly pregnant. Does that make sense? Sometimes my only reminder is my maternity jeans racing for my ankles when I walk (how do you keep them up!?). Perhaps the novelty of a twin pregnancy has done this business in for me: there's no monthly ultrasound, and no awed looks after a glimpse at my huge belly.

Don't get me wrong, to quote my dad, I'm "happy as a pig in s[...]" to be having this baby, but I'm also surprised to be in the third tri and still waiting to feel pregnant.

Undoubtedly delivery day will be upon me quickly as a result.

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Thursday, January 8, 2009
posted by Tinker at 14:26

I went for the gestational diabetes screen yesterday and my results came back just fine. Today I went to see my OB and our visit was equally uneventful: I'm measuring on target and baby's heartrate is where it should be. I've lost a kilo (2 lbs) since my last visit four weeks ago, but even that is a non-issue. So I'm now a pound less than my transfer-day weight (not that I've been eating healthy or doing any exercise), but trust me, I still have enough to spare.

And because it was all so fun, I'll be going every two weeks from here on in.

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Monday, January 5, 2009
posted by Tinker at 00:13

in a very large, extremely crowded, courtyard-style cafeteria:

- a Monegasque royal
- a pilot ex-boyfriend
- my husband
- and a rather young unknown hippie guy.

Their zeal to catch my eye led to one of them scaling the wall to reach me at a second storey window.

Yes, the crazy late pregnancy dreams have begun.

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